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She may be the highest profile Housewives castmember now, and the one gaining numerous awards, but Felicity Huffman (Lynette Scavo) said it wasn't long ago that she was left in tears as she felt inferior to the other castmembers.

"I remember when we first did the upfronts in New York [where the networks announce their shows], before Housewives was on the air," she told Time s Online "Everyone came and took pictures of beautiful Teri [Hatcher] and Nicollette [Sheridan] and Eva [Longoria]. The first hour, I was like, 'This is so funny-nobody wants to take a picture of me.' The second hour, my nose was a little out of joint. By the third hour, I hated it. I called my husband [William H. Macy] from the limo, crying, 'I am the oldest and the ugliest one here.' And he said, 'Aweh, baby, I'm always the oldest and the ugliest one on the set. And it is only going to get worse.' I just loved him for that."

Huffman spoke about her past insecurities, and said it helped her with the role of transsexual Bree in Transamerica. "I understand the pain of waking up in agony in your own skin," she said. "I had that 'Just can't be thin enough' thing. 'Hate my body, hate my body, hate my body.' There is a small band of normality, and you have to fit inside that band or it causes great pain and struggling. Whether you're trying to be a size six or whether you are gay or whether you are transgender, all you experience is 'I don't fit in' and 'What I'm doing isn't working' and 'I am below par'."

Now Huffman is more open about her feelings, even if it does get her into trouble. Last year Huffman caused a bit of a stir when she wouldn't answer the question when asked if motherhood was the best thing that happened to her. "I resented the question," she said. "If you answer yes, you're okay. You're a good mother. And if you answer no, you're a bad mother. I don't like being put up against the wall like that, and I am glad I answered that way-not because I want to make a political statement, but it happens to be my truth. It's not everyone's experience of motherhood, but it's mine, and there's nothing more painful than trying to keep a secret. Better to go, 'This is incredibly hard and I'm losing my mind. Does anyone else feel like this?' The only thing you are supposed to say is, 'My life has meaning now, and I love it.' You can say your husband is driving you crazy, your job is driving you crazy, your best friend, anything, but not your kids."

The full interview with Huffman, where she also talks about being an Oscar nominee, can be found at Time s Online.

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